Realizing the stories are often untrue...

It amazes me that with all of the time I spend reading and learning about being mindful, I often fall into my own minds trap. If I have learned anything about life, it's that everyone, has moments of self doubt. How any times have you tried really hard only to end up disappointed?

When I think about what triggers me its being in a larger group setting and feeling like an outsider. I either try too hard or fade into the back. Either way I always find myself feeling awkward and not knowing where I should fit in, And that's where the story begins.... My mind starts racing and I tell myself I do not belong or I come off too strong if I try. I should recognize the behavior after reading many Brene Brown books but sometimes I let my emotions get the best of me. Controlling our emotions is often very difficult. That's where the work comes in. The practice of learning to shut off the heavy cycle in our washing machine of a head. To let go of these thoughts we bring in that are hurtful and often untrue.

The truth is most people are just doing their best. Often times we misinterpret little exchanges and have no idea what the circumstances are that preceded the exchange. As we move into December and we enter into holiday season, keep an open mind and remember the 24 hour rule (sometimes it only needs to be a few hours :-). Do not be afraid to put yourself out there. Trust the gift that is yourself. You never know who you may meet that can change your life or how you may change theirs...